“Nobody deserves your tears, but whoever deserves them will not make you cry.”

Whenever I saw this quote it reminds me of myself. What is sadness? Sadness is an emotional feeling that comes with pain. Everybody is going to experience this feeling several times in their life. No one can ignore from sadness. But do we actually deserve the sadness? Well nobody deserve that but this is something that we cannot avoid in our life. The biggest indication of sadness that we had ever seen is crying isn't it ? I do cry but I learn to control my tears nowadays. I want to be a stronger person that I am always. I want to be an independent person without depending on any other people. I am going to give myself some time and regain my strength again. There are many factors that contribute to my sadness recently. They do not come from a single factor. There are many. I know I am not IRON MAN. I have to endure it no matter what. I will not lose to my very own weakness. I am going to Macau and Hong Kong in 2 days time. I start preparing my luggage already. I just want a nice vacation and forget the sadness that I endure right now. Its too pain. I feel hard to breath deep in my heart. I am crying in my heart. I am not going to cry it out. Let everything be in my heart for the moment. I am going to scream it out when I am going vacation after this 2 days. I want to take a nice rest. I feel tired talking about the same thing again and again. Disappointed and sad. Whats the point of repeating it again? I think there is no use talking because talking too much it will only be crap. I do not want to waste too much of my times doing crap or aka rubbish. I just want to spend up all my regular times doing something that really benefits me. For the next long holiday I want to take up new language class , find a part time job or brush up my English language skills. I do not want to be like now sitting at home doing nothing. I feel lifeless and tired because of sitting too much. Rest too much too will only bring me more tiredness. I want to have energy to do whatever that I like. I know that my mother can gives me money but I also want to have the experience of facing people and of course gain more experience in life. Working experience is extremely important when you are going to apply job in the future. Hwaiting Peggy! I know you can do it~ ^.^