Dear Bloggie, Today I had been researching quite a number of universities that I am going to pursue my degree course next year. There are not much University that offer the course that I want to study. Even there are, the chances/possibilities that I can get in is quite low. But this doesn't mean that I am going to give up. I want to try my best to get into the university that I want. I am going to take my MUET exam this upcoming July. I want to get at least band 4. I am going to brush up my English for the one month time before starting new semester. Although the function of MUET is only to get into Malaysian Public University, but I still hope that I am going to get a good result too. With a blink of eye I am going to finish my PRE-U studies soon. 2 years time had pass. I am already 20 now. I still remember the very first day that I enter University. Everything was so awkward and funny. I did not learn much about surviving in a different environment as I had experienced this during my high school life. I think that University life is a life that we are going to apply all the skill that we had already learned in high school. But what do I see is different from what I used to think. In University, you get to see different of people from different background. Everyone is having their own problem and of course everyone is minding their own business. Even if I try to help, there are not much people that are appreciating everything you are going to help them. All the best is just do your own thing and mind your own business. I still neglect that concept. If I can help,I am going to help. I try my best to fit into different kind of environments and eventually build up friendship with certain people. My dear best friend in University, I always appreciate everything that we share together. Although we are from different background, races, religion and culture that doesn't stop us from being good friend ^__^ Semester 5 is coming soon. I have to study extremely hard this semester because I have to maintain my pointer in order to continue my studies. I have to come up with a good timetable that I can follow up and organize myself. I am going to leave up all the activities related to University club since I have been active in all the universities for 2 years. I think its time for me to give up everything and concentrate on my final year. Wow. Me PEGGY CHAI being final year student in Uni right now. HAHA~

I have to work hard to graduate with a good result! Happy FLYING COLORS~ I want to have a good future with a good plan. I remember my target all the time. This motivate me to continue working for my dream. Thank you GOD for everything. I am happy that I am still alive today. I know that life is precious. I'm not going to waste everything I had in my life. My beloved, continue work hard for your future too :) We do not know what is going on at future. There is no reason on not doing anything although sometimes we have to endure it. Life is full of obstacles. Get over it and be a better person from day to day. Love from Peggy. World Peace ^__^

Another New Day

Dear Bloggie, remembering all the history in my past life. I eventually rewind all the history in my life. I do not want to be be like any other girl that are experiencing all the problem in my life. I just want to be a normal girl that have the happy life and as what I had said I want to have a simple life. My beloved, having you in my life eventually make me happy. I start appreciating everything that I had in my life. Thanks for making me feel appreciated in my life. Having you in my life makes me happy and of course sad sometimes. I just want to be myself in front of you. I hope that you are always being yourself in front of me too. Never give up and always looking forward in doing everything. We have to be strong to be successful in our life. I know sometimes arguments do happen in our life. We do not know what is going on. Human makes mistakes sometimes and I am sure that you knows that too. Hence, we have to try our best to avoid any arguments in our life. All the best~ Love from Peggy

Everything comes from Heart

Dear bloggie, I sincerely do think that everything that we do is going to be the best if it does comes from our heart. You might not know that I actually care for you very much, but I do hope that you can know it someday. I am not saying that I want everyone to know about it but I hope that you actually knows about it. Sometimes you might feel that the world is unfair to you and all the good wants goes to me. But if you open your eyes and try to look from another point of view, a lot of people are caring and loving you. They tried to give you everything that they can. They are angry at you sometimes because you are constantly making mistake. Human are not perfect. They make mistakes sometimes. By making this mistakes, they are improving and try not to repeat the same mistake again. That is what you got to realize.I am not by your side. Definitely I am not the person that can guide you all the time but the world of endless boundaries enable us to connect with each other immediately. I hope that you are doing fine there. Learn to do everything yourself and learn how to be independent. Learn that earning money is not easy. Everything that our family haves today comes from hard work. We are not living in a luxury life without working and hard work. I appreciate everything that my mother and father can gives me but in the same time I tried my best to gain as much knowledge and experience that I can so that I can give them a better life when I am working after graduating. I want all my family members to live in a good life. A good life that are simple. What does it call my simple good life? I just want them to have enough food, shelter, clothes and all the basic needs that they ever wanted and the little bit entertainment that they wanted. Life is not simple. I have to work really hard to provide the best for my family members. All the best to me! And of course everyone that are working hard in the world! My beloved, work hard too! I know you can :) World peace. Love from Peggy ^.^

Learning to Forgive

In our life, we have to learn to forgive people that are making mistake isn't it ? In my point of view, forgiveness is the renunciation or cessation of resentment, indignation or anger as a result of offense, or any disagreement or mistake that we often face in life. Why ??? Have I ever wonder why is all this happening in our daily life? The answer is simple. This is because human often making mistake. They do not realize that they are hurting people sometimes. Forgiving someone needs a really big courage and I often wonder do I actually have to courage to do that actually. I am scare and feel betrayed often. I just want to find a mirror and reflect myself. Which one is harder? The be forgiven or to forgive someone? Does an apology actually solve all this problem? I do actually feel I am better after waking up the next day but I feel there is something strange with me. I do not want to rewind back all the problems that is going on in our life. But what happen actually ? I think GOD is fair sometimes. The things that you never thought that you want to hide but it end up appearing in your life isn't it? Life is like that. Full of challenge. Here is the list of quote that I want to share with all my friends today. - You never know what you have until you lose it forever, and once you lose it, you can never get it back. - My heart was taken by you.... broken by you... and now it is in pieces because of you. Thank you. - Love is like falling down... in the end you are left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever. I made a choice to finally let go, because I can't stand the pain, it's time for my last tear to fall and smile again. I cried today... not because I miss you... or even wanted you... but because I realized I'm gonna be all right without you. This is all the quotes in my heart right now. Perhaps I am in the deep deep bottom of my feeling but I feel its alright. I don't feel sad actually. I feel strong and know that all this is not going to make me another person. I am always staying by my true self all the time. This is just part and parcel of my life. I am not going to be affected by all this small matters. When I looking at myself again, I am a naif girl last time. HAHA. Growing up is really tough process and I am still going through it. Thank you GOD for letting me go through all this life learning process. I tried my best to handle my emotion well. Just give me some time to go through all this miserable stuff and I am going to be a better one . Hopefully soon. All the best everyone. Life peace and I hope that everyone is in peaceful life. Love from Peggy Chai.

April 2012

The fourth month of the Dragon year.
Right now I am listening songs while updating my blog.
I feel that there are many challenges in my life. Many obstacles that I need to go through.
My birthday is coming in 2 months time and I am officially 20 years old then.
I cannot imagine myself being 20 years old actually. Its the first time I am not a teenagers anymore. Well... I know I have to face the fact that I am in my twenties ^__^

Dear Jannice, my beloved Jimui Dear. I am going to miss you very much once you are leaving to US soon~ I hope that you can study well and adapt to the environment there. I know its going to be though for you but I know you can do it. You might look soft but you are always strong deep in your body. As your best friend, I am always here for you no matter what even though I am far from you.
Get a good result and show that you can be a successful person in the future!
About everything that is going on to you, its just part and parcel in your life and you have to go through it in your life sometimes.
I do have my difficulties sometimes but I think that is going to make us stronger!
Right now, I am always having nightmare :(
I feel pressured sleeping every night! OMG :(
I hope that I can get a nice good sleep without having nightmare.
Just let me have a peaceful sleep :(
Its so tiring sleeping like this.

KPOP is still part of my life. Its been so long isn't it listening to Korean songs. I know myself but I can't change it ~ Haha~
If you say I am only addicted a while to it I don't think so~ I have been an avid fan since I am 13 years old~
7 years being a Halyu fan :)
I am just myself .
I am going to start researching for further education again and this is the worst part. Too many choices and I have to make a wise want.
I hate choosing and making decision specially the one related to my future ! I want to be a rich girl and independent want without depending on other people that much not even my parents!
I want my family to have a good life and I want to give them all the best in the future so that they know that investing money on me is not a wasting want.
Dear family, I hope that I can give everything that I could to make all of your life better.
Dear brothers, please do study hard and do not waste money because money is not easy to earn.
And the world climate is changing rapidly now. Please stop polluting the environment.
Save everything that we could/can save !!!
Peace ^_^