Everything comes from Heart

Dear bloggie, I sincerely do think that everything that we do is going to be the best if it does comes from our heart. You might not know that I actually care for you very much, but I do hope that you can know it someday. I am not saying that I want everyone to know about it but I hope that you actually knows about it. Sometimes you might feel that the world is unfair to you and all the good wants goes to me. But if you open your eyes and try to look from another point of view, a lot of people are caring and loving you. They tried to give you everything that they can. They are angry at you sometimes because you are constantly making mistake. Human are not perfect. They make mistakes sometimes. By making this mistakes, they are improving and try not to repeat the same mistake again. That is what you got to realize.I am not by your side. Definitely I am not the person that can guide you all the time but the world of endless boundaries enable us to connect with each other immediately. I hope that you are doing fine there. Learn to do everything yourself and learn how to be independent. Learn that earning money is not easy. Everything that our family haves today comes from hard work. We are not living in a luxury life without working and hard work. I appreciate everything that my mother and father can gives me but in the same time I tried my best to gain as much knowledge and experience that I can so that I can give them a better life when I am working after graduating. I want all my family members to live in a good life. A good life that are simple. What does it call my simple good life? I just want them to have enough food, shelter, clothes and all the basic needs that they ever wanted and the little bit entertainment that they wanted. Life is not simple. I have to work really hard to provide the best for my family members. All the best to me! And of course everyone that are working hard in the world! My beloved, work hard too! I know you can :) World peace. Love from Peggy ^.^

Learning to Forgive

In our life, we have to learn to forgive people that are making mistake isn't it ? In my point of view, forgiveness is the renunciation or cessation of resentment, indignation or anger as a result of offense, or any disagreement or mistake that we often face in life. Why ??? Have I ever wonder why is all this happening in our daily life? The answer is simple. This is because human often making mistake. They do not realize that they are hurting people sometimes. Forgiving someone needs a really big courage and I often wonder do I actually have to courage to do that actually. I am scare and feel betrayed often. I just want to find a mirror and reflect myself. Which one is harder? The be forgiven or to forgive someone? Does an apology actually solve all this problem? I do actually feel I am better after waking up the next day but I feel there is something strange with me. I do not want to rewind back all the problems that is going on in our life. But what happen actually ? I think GOD is fair sometimes. The things that you never thought that you want to hide but it end up appearing in your life isn't it? Life is like that. Full of challenge. Here is the list of quote that I want to share with all my friends today. - You never know what you have until you lose it forever, and once you lose it, you can never get it back. - My heart was taken by you.... broken by you... and now it is in pieces because of you. Thank you. - Love is like falling down... in the end you are left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever. I made a choice to finally let go, because I can't stand the pain, it's time for my last tear to fall and smile again. I cried today... not because I miss you... or even wanted you... but because I realized I'm gonna be all right without you. This is all the quotes in my heart right now. Perhaps I am in the deep deep bottom of my feeling but I feel its alright. I don't feel sad actually. I feel strong and know that all this is not going to make me another person. I am always staying by my true self all the time. This is just part and parcel of my life. I am not going to be affected by all this small matters. When I looking at myself again, I am a naif girl last time. HAHA. Growing up is really tough process and I am still going through it. Thank you GOD for letting me go through all this life learning process. I tried my best to handle my emotion well. Just give me some time to go through all this miserable stuff and I am going to be a better one . Hopefully soon. All the best everyone. Life peace and I hope that everyone is in peaceful life. Love from Peggy Chai.

April 2012

The fourth month of the Dragon year.
Right now I am listening songs while updating my blog.
I feel that there are many challenges in my life. Many obstacles that I need to go through.
My birthday is coming in 2 months time and I am officially 20 years old then.
I cannot imagine myself being 20 years old actually. Its the first time I am not a teenagers anymore. Well... I know I have to face the fact that I am in my twenties ^__^

Dear Jannice, my beloved Jimui Dear. I am going to miss you very much once you are leaving to US soon~ I hope that you can study well and adapt to the environment there. I know its going to be though for you but I know you can do it. You might look soft but you are always strong deep in your body. As your best friend, I am always here for you no matter what even though I am far from you.
Get a good result and show that you can be a successful person in the future!
About everything that is going on to you, its just part and parcel in your life and you have to go through it in your life sometimes.
I do have my difficulties sometimes but I think that is going to make us stronger!
Right now, I am always having nightmare :(
I feel pressured sleeping every night! OMG :(
I hope that I can get a nice good sleep without having nightmare.
Just let me have a peaceful sleep :(
Its so tiring sleeping like this.

KPOP is still part of my life. Its been so long isn't it listening to Korean songs. I know myself but I can't change it ~ Haha~
If you say I am only addicted a while to it I don't think so~ I have been an avid fan since I am 13 years old~
7 years being a Halyu fan :)
I am just myself .
I am going to start researching for further education again and this is the worst part. Too many choices and I have to make a wise want.
I hate choosing and making decision specially the one related to my future ! I want to be a rich girl and independent want without depending on other people that much not even my parents!
I want my family to have a good life and I want to give them all the best in the future so that they know that investing money on me is not a wasting want.
Dear family, I hope that I can give everything that I could to make all of your life better.
Dear brothers, please do study hard and do not waste money because money is not easy to earn.
And the world climate is changing rapidly now. Please stop polluting the environment.
Save everything that we could/can save !!!
Peace ^_^

FEBRUARY 2012

Dear Bloggie~ How are you recently ?
I am going to update my blog once again. Writing blog require some time but its okay. I am going to do it ~ No problem no problem. :D
February is quite a hectic and busy month for me. I am busying for exam almost the whole month. I feel very stress ~ And of course the exam still have to go on no matter what.
I am sad and angry for the exam. What is the reason that I am being angry ?
For all the time I know you are getting dean list because of this ? Why don't you just admit that you use that way ? Why must you use stupid way to achieve what you want ?
I know its hard to pass with flying colours~ I am facing hardness too but why I can do it but not you ? Must you cheat yourself like that ?
For those that are doing it too, don't think that I don't know. YES. I am talking to you~ BITCH AND FUCK UP MAN~ U know who you are ~ I am not pointing it at anyone but if you actually feel something then I am so sorry about that~

I know I don't deserve to say any bad points of anyone but I can't stand it anymore . I know that life is full of unfairness but I believe there's justice in this world. Even it does not exist also, I always believe in myself. LOL

I hope that I am going to be more relax right now.
Peace world. CHILL~
Good luck for upcoming exam! :)

Chinese New Year-Year of Dragon ♥

First of all I want to wish everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR! Sorry for the late wishes >.<
I had test on the first day of the year which was 1/1/2012. I am very very busy with all the test/exam and assignment :X
After the CNY later I still have so many test, final exam , assignment and even field trip :X
Life is hectic and I don't really like this kind of life :X
I rather have some time for myself to relax and do whatever I want.
I am going to sort out myself soon!
Healthy life ~ I want to exercise. Since the timetable of my lecture clash with my gym time I had been stop going to gym for almost 2 week~ I have to stop this bad habit. NO matter what I have to find a way to exercise as well even its at night!
I want to look fit of course :- )

This will be my inspiration! I have to work out a lot :X

I don't really have resolution this year. I just hope that I am going to be better than last year. I already set a calender at my study table and update the list of things to do everyday.
Life in semester 4 is not easy but I am looking FORWARD for SEMESTER 5!
I am going to be 3rd year senior soon~
Kinda nervous and happy though. But, our relationship with Junior is it consider close? I don't think so. I think I only know a little number of juniors from the first year.
Hope that they are not going to kill me :X [ Pardon my ignorance]
I think in semester 5 I am going to be really busy as well. :X
and of course ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT thing is I have to GET READY for my training industry ~
Its going to be 12 credit subject! Right now, I am also having an aquaculture project of rearing catfish. I don't really like catfish as it's very slimy to me. I am scare of it :0
But what to do??? I have to overcome it as well :0

[MY GOD: TRY TO LOOK AT THE CATFISH!] I am wondering why I have so much of courage to do such things :D
I am proud of myself :)
I also hope that I can score with flying colors in the exam this year .
I am paying attention to lecturer as well :x

Well that's for my new year resolution and wishes.

Now, in 2 more days Chinese New Year is coming!
The year 2012 is going to be the year of DRAGON :D
Wohoo~ So strong and big animal !

I hope that this new year celebration is not going to be that bored.
I just don't know why that they new year celebration is getting bored and bored every year. Perhaps is because I am growing up already.
OMG~! I am going to be 20 years old soon after my birthday this year :O

I will like to have a birthday cake like the picture above! Its so cute and looking so delicious! :D Totally LOVE IT! ♥♥♥♥♥



P/S: I am wishing myself an early birthday wish first :P

The Year of DRAGON is going to be better than last year! HOPE SO! :) AND IT WILL!
All the best everyone ! :)

Love the world ~ Peace ♥♥♥♥♥
Will update soon my bloggie ~ Muaks ♥♥♥♥♥